New Year, (Kind of) New Me

Hello, blog that I have not written in since October 2022!

I just got an email saying that my domain name has been renewed, which was a stark reminder that I haven’t felt compelled to publish something here in over a year. Part of me has felt overwhelmed by the amount of things that have happened in the last year, which makes the thought of updating my blog with everything that’s happened feel… overwhelming!

Instead of recapping, I’m looking forward to the upcoming year. I am a big fan of New Year’s Resolutions, so here are mine for 2024:

Monthly Trivia Night

This is my favorite resolution and the one that I’m looking forward to the most!

Over the last few months, I’ve realized that I have formed so many new connections and relationships that I’d like to grow further, and I’m excited by the possibilities! However, I have also fallen into the mental trap of thinking that nobody wants to hang out with me because nobody is inviting me out, and letting these thoughts discourage me from inviting people out myself.

To get around these mental hurdles, I’ve decided that I want to go to trivia night at least once a month. I love trivia, but, more importantly, I love having an external force (or better put, excuse) to invite people out.

I’ve floated the idea to some circles already and have received a lot of positive responses (including offers to connect me to other trivia-savvy people, which is exciting!), but I still definitely feel the need to close the loop and actually finalize plans. That’s always the obstacle, right?

No New Books

I own a lot of books. I have a full, four-shelf bookshelf as well as a rapidly-growing collection on my Kindle and Audible accounts. Everything is growing because I am constantly on the lookout for sales and good deals, especially in the book section of my local Goodwill. I get a very specific sense of accomplishment from collecting books – again, the possibility! the thrill of the find! etc! – but this feeling has very rarely been followed-up with the sense of accomplishment that comes from actually… finishing… these… books…

Because of this, I have declared that I will not buy any new books in 2024, and instead, take this year to work through my current queues and bookshelves.

I have, however, decided to make one exception to this rule. I am part of a book club with a few friends from college, and I definitely want to keep participating, as it’s been a great way to continue feeling connected with them – so I’ll buy whatever book we’re talking about, even if it’s not already on my bookshelf. Anything for connection, right? (See above!)

The Year of Heavy Weights (and – gasp – No Running Goals)

This is a complicated one!

I ran my last race, for the foreseeable future, at the beginning of last November. I haven’t run a step (on purpose) since then!

I have a lot of thoughts about this change that I will probably pour into another blog post in the future! (Content!) For today’s post, I want to focus on my new fitness regimen instead: lifting heavy weights!

I’ve wanted to lift heavier weights for a long time, but had trouble balancing my time between lifting and running, and because I kept signing up for races, running had to take precedence for a long time. After my last race, however, I decided to follow my heart and sign up for a gym membership.

Things have been going great so far and, honestly, and my former race training mentality (read: consistency) has mapped itself well to getting myself into the gym on a regular basis. Here’s to a stronger year!

I Took The Instagram App Off My Phone, And It’s Great

Sometime in the summer of 2020, as the name of this post suggests, I took the Instagram app off my phone.

That timing is incredibly important. The pandemic started earlier that year, and I spent hours and hours scrolling, wasting my time staring at my phone screen. I started following many new accounts to swipe through, from influencers to artists to educators and everything in between. Though they made me happy at the time – and I can’t stress enough what a time that was – Instagram quickly became an ongoing source of stress and more mentally tiring than I thought it would be.

So I deleted it!

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Trisha Tries: Meditating for One Week

My first week of work in 2021 was… stressful. I was off between Christmas and New Year, and definitely settled into my daily routine of waking up in the late afternoon and doing whatever I wanted. Because of this, transitioning back into work was jarring! And not to mention other current events happening at the same time! I wanted to crawl back into my bed and never leave!

Back when I could go into the office, I actually used to meditate a lot during my work breaks. On nice days, I would go to a nearby park and sit in the sun; on not-so-nice days, common in New England, I would retreat to an empty conference room. It was a great way to clear my mind on particularly stressful or tedious days, and I almost always returned to my desk with more focus.

However, it’s been difficult to work meditation into my new, perpetual work-from-home routine. I’ve been using my breaks during the day to exercise (which is still a good mental break, but doesn’t quite have the same effect) and have never really dedicated time outside of work hours to meditate.

Because I was so stressed out after my first week of 2021, for the next week, I decided to purposely take time out of my day every day to take a meditation break to see if that would cure my mental ails.

My week of meditation went well! I ended up different amounts of time off at least once a day during the week, ranging from 5 minutes to 30 minutes. Most of the time was spent with silence or playing relaxing music, though I did do some guided meditations on particularly distracted days.

One major change during this week was that work felt a lot less stressful. However, it was admittedly difficult for me to pin this result specifically on meditation. I work in customer service, where my workload depends heavily on people asking questions, and perhaps that second week had a lower volume of submitted tickets. Maybe they were easier tickets. Maybe I had more time to clear my queue. Who knows! Either way, this was a welcome change.

My favorite takeaway from meditating was not anything about my current work specifically, but about the future. I spent a lot of my meditation time thinking about where and how I want to move forward in my career, and was able to make more actionable, concrete plans to meet those goals. Sure, I may have found time to reflect outside of meditating, but it was nice to have that time carved out for my brain to wander and find the connections organically.

Additionally, my mindset toward work shifted as well. While this may be due to the week being less busy overall, I do think that part of this is due to meditation as well. I am the type of person that can work well under stress, but I can also burn out quickly after being on overdrive. When things feel high alert for too long, that burn out only gets more intense, and it continues even after things have cooled down.

Because of this, meditating helped me step away from and reframe my current workload to realize that things weren’t as busy as they were before and that I didn’t have to put as much pressure on myself anymore. I was able to stop scrambling and handle new questions with grace and calmness, instead of being shocked and strained by every new thing that came in. A good mindset for work – but also a good mindset for life as well!

After my week of meditation was up, I admit that I haven’t taken time out to meditate again. I’ve fallen back into my old habits of exercising or tidying up during my work breaks, which are still productive and meditative in their own ways, but not the strict habit that I had set for myself previously.

However, as I write this post out, I wonder if I should pick this habit back up. I completely acknowledge that meditation is best done consistently, done during the good times and the bad, but I’ve never been able to set up a constant “streak” outside of this single week. Moving forward, I will likely never meditate daily, but I will continue to look for more nooks and crannies in my schedule to fit sessions in, even if they’re just quick ones!